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Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I haven't disappeared again....

I'm just too sad to post. My beloved shih tzu, Gizzy, is not doing well, not well at all. His vet says "it's not looking good". I don't think I have discussed it here on my blog but Gizzy has chronic renal failure (his kidneys are only functioning @ 15 to 25%) . Since being diagnosed over 3 years ago, he has only been able to eat his prescription foods & we have to give him subcutaneous injections (we use the last method w/ the bag...allowing it to drip into Gizzy), every other day, to flush out the toxins that his kidneys cannot. If he doesn't seem to be feeling well, then we give him the fluids every day.

He's been a real trooper & has been doing wonderfully but now his renal failure has progressed to the point that he's very anemic w/ extreme weakness & loss of appetite & his kidney values are "off the charts high". His vet says that there's still a bit of hope if his kidney values have risen in response to the anemia. But if we get his anemia under control (he's already had a blood transfusion & will probably require another) & his values remain high then his kidneys are just done & there's nothing we can do.

I love this little doggie almost as if I had given birth to him myself. In fact, I have often been caught saying, "when I brought Gizzy home from the hospital" or "when I had Gizzy". He's more than my little doggie...he's my security blanket. When everything is all crappy or when I am emotionally tore up over something, I always think, "I'm going to go home & snuggle w/ my doggie & everything will be allright for a few minutes". Now I'm terribly distraught & he's not there to make me feel better. I haven't been spending much time at home this week because the house w/out him, seems so empty & I feel so alone.

I hesitate to ask for prayers because I asked so much of God last year & Gizzy is just an old dog w/ lots of health issues & I have already been granted 3 extra years w/ him. But yet, I am sooo not ready to lose him.


Here's my beautiful, little brave soldier.

And a picture of he & I together, while we were on vacation in Fredericksburg last year.



I probably won't be blogging for a week or two...whatever happens. If he makes it & comes home from the hospital, then I will be tending to him. If he doesn't...then I won't be in any shape to post. But I do promise to let y'all know if he passes on. So for now, no news is good news.

21 comments:

Stacey said...

I will say prayers for your doggy. I understand loving him as much as a person. :)

Really Rainey said...

Oh Cami, I"ll send love and light and prayers for your beloved doggy too... I have a pet that I am very close to... Gadget... Her pic is on my sidebar... funny thing is... her mother's name is Gizzy!

I'll pray for you too... Please keep us posted when you can...

Love and Light
~Really Rainey~

Shelia said...

Oh, Cami! I'm so sorry to hear of your little precious' bad health! I certainly know how we can love our animals just like they are our children. I know that's how I love my Chloe Dawn. I think it's perfectly fine to pray for our doggies. I know I do! I am sending up prayers for you and your sweet little dog!
Blessings,
Shelia

tam said...

Awww Cami I am so sad for you-I got all chocked up reading your post! I am such an animal lover and have two cats and a dog-they really are apart of our family and deeply loved. I will remember you and sweet Gizzy in my prayers and thoughts-take care dear blogging buddy we will be here when you return! ~Tam

Katy said...

Cami, of course you have my prayers for your sweet little baby! I know how it is to love a pet; they are our children. My heart is aching for your sadness.

HoneyB said...

I'll be thinking of you and Gizzy. Those of us who have pet companions totally understand how hard it is.

Terri and Bob said...

I have been in your place myself. It is so sad. Prayers for you and Gizzy.

Rose Haven said...

Oh Cami...HUGS to you!!! We'll be praying for Gizzy and you, dear! I'm going to add Gizzy and You to our Prayer List.

~Blessings,
Jan

Carrie said...

Cami I am truly sorry to hear about Gizzy.

Susie said...

Awww.. I'm so sorry to hear Gizzy isn't doing well. I know how sweet those little shi tzu's are and anybody who has ever had a pet understands your sadness. I'll keep you both in my thoughts and prayers!

Ginger said...

Cami, I am so sorry that your precious pup, Gizzy isn't doing so well. I know exactly what you are going through.
Whatever happens, I will say a prayer for you and Gizzy.
Ginger

anna said...

I hope to hear good news.

Gollum said...

Sending up prayers for Gizzy!
A millions hugs,
G

laurie @ bargain hunting said...

Oh, I have been there, and I do so understand. I'm praying for you and Gizzy. laurie

Karen said...

Hi there. Happened upon your blog because of your picture. Look at my picture! That is my Harley, and he and Gizzy could be twins. He is 1 1/2 years old now.
I soooooo understand what you are gong through. I will give Harley an extra big cuddle when I go downstairs, just for you and Gizzy.
Prayers going up for both of you.
Karen

ceekay said...

I am so sorry your puppy is ill. Of course you love your dog. He is a member of your family. My precious Pepper has been gone over 6 years and I am still missing her.

Linda said...

Vinty, I still remember a story about Gizzy and I think it was a woodpecker he spotted in a store window? My thoughts & prayers to both of you.

The Quintessential Magpie said...

You better believe I just prayed for Gizzy, and God loves animals! We are to be their caretakers, and you have done a wonderful job with Gizzy. I understand what it means to love a pet(s).

XO,

Sheila

Knitty said...

Love and Light to Gizzy and you.

Cindy@Cutepinkstuff said...

Awww. . . Gizzy is so precious! Hope all is well.

Stephanie ~ Angelic Accents said...

Cami, I am so very sorry for your loss. Gizzy was a beautiful dog. Love the picture of the two of you together. I have a little shih tzu that is such a huge part of my life, too. They really are our family. May God comfort you. Your precious little Rudy will bring you much happiness in the years to come. In his puppydom, you will be so busy chasing after him.

Big Hugs,
Stephanie
Angelic Accents